Adjustment

I was born in Bangor Maine. To Jennifer, and Seiji Shinozuka. My mother grew up on Gilpin Rd and my father grew up in Japan. We lived in a tiny 1 bed room apartment ( of course going off of pictures. like I would be able to remember that). However the paint keep chipping.. I would go around the house eating the paint off the ground. It was led paint. Now if any of you know my dad.. he is very anal.. everything has to be just so. When he found out that my lead count was up, and the reason being was because of the paint chipping, he decided to move. My grandparents have given us land on the Gilpin Rd to build on when ever we wanted to. SO my dad took this opportunity to build a nice big house.

As soon as the house was finished the house i was 2. I loved that house. I had my own room. It was awesome! I also loved it because my cousin was the next house over. By the time I was 5 I was ready for kindergarten i went to Orland Consolidated School. i liked it well as far as i can remember.

When i was 7 my dad got a flying job for japan airlines in Hawaii. so we packed up and moved away. it was sad leaving our family behind, but my dad told me that it would only be for 3 years. I was excited. we had a apartment right on the beach. I would go to the beach everyday. When I told my friends i didn't know how to swim they looked at me like I was cray or something. but then I thought about it I was from Maine, where if your lucky you can swim 3 months out of the year. people in Hawaii could swim all year long.  It didn't take me that long to learn how to swim.

Then we moved in to a house. we had a huge back yard and a huge avocado, banana tree, lychee tree, and a mountain apple tree! we would come back and visit once a year back to Maine and i always liked it here. but I liked it better in Hawaii, I could go to the beach everyday after school. I loved it. expect after 8 years passed by.. I started to get sick of it. you couldn't go anywhere. you would drive 20 minutes and thats it.. you would hit beach could go anywhere else.

My parents started to talk about moving back to Mine and I was all for it! I was ready to be back. the school that I went to was a tiny private school with only 13 kinds in the high school. I knew that it would be a huge adjustment going to Bucksport high school. But i was up for adjustment and change.

and I'm glad i was.

photo taken in waikiki 

photo of beach and turtle taken at north shore beach

Nursing

I am a first year CNA student, I attend Hancock community technical center. Many people believe that being a CNA could be the worst job ever. At first I thought that too. Wiping butts, changeling peoples depends doesn't seem fun. However you are helping them when their family couldn't. You are making the family's life easier making them more happy knowing that their loved ones are being taken care of. I love the feeling knowing that I'm am doing something good for a family in need.

However some family members aren't so thankful. Some get mad when they find out that they have gotten sicker and blame it on the nurses. I want the family to realize that we are their family when they aren't around. We see them everyday. We get attached. We hold their hands and while their tears when the family isn't around. We see then go down hill and down hill fast. We are there for them. It's more then just a job to me.

Being a nurse is a hard job. You have to deal with the patient when they are at their worst. They will swing at you bite you, and scream at you. When that happens to me I don't get mad, I just keep doing what I am doing. I tell myself that they don't mean it, they are scared and don't know what is going on, don't know that you are trying to help them. Sure the job does get gross at times, but you learn to love it. Go in, in the morning and see their smiling faces, it just brightens up your day.

I feel the hardest thing to do or I should say not to do would get emotionally attached. I work in long term which is people with altzhimers. They aren't getting any better and most likely will die there, and I know that. However when you are with them everyday it makes it so much harder not to get attached. You think about them not only at work but it follows you home. I wounded how so and so are doing tonight? I think that to myself every night.

Only child

Many people wish that they were an only child. However I don't like it. I want a sibling. I spicfically want a younger brother . The reason I want a sibling that is younger is because it takes the my parents hawk eyes off of me. Also you would never get board! Always something to do! However that would be hard with a younger brother.. So I want a younger brother and a older sister. So I can steal her things and go out with her and do things that are fun.. Not siting around the house alone.. All lonely. Because I am a only child my parents grip on me is very tight. They want to know what I'm doing where I'm going who will be there want time I will be leaving, when I will be home ,  who will be driving.. It gets sooo aggravating.

I have proved myself trustworthy they have no reason not to trust me. Since I have proved myself trut worthy I feel that I should have more freedoms. I understand that they are worried about me and want me to be safe. However when I am on my own I'm not going to call my mom  tell her where I will be what time I will be home who is driving or where I will be. Also i think it would be fun to have someone else around the house to be there when i am alone when my parents are gone. It gets kind of creepy when no one else is in the house. Also wouldnt mind having a sister my age so i could steel all of her things that i like, and we can borrow each others things. It gets pretty annoying being a only child, but it does have its perks.. no hammy downs.